MEMORIES.

It’s a scary feeling,
To lose your relatives/loved ones.
It’s just such a scary feeling, that it even saddens me to think about it. And I just might cry. Just a dream I had one night made me cry. It’s really scary. I really don't want to lose anyone I love, I don't want to. But then again, I might see them in heaven one day. But it takes forever.

I had a dream that I lost mommy, and it was so frightening. I can't imagine doing so many things without her, and that she does so many things for me. Its like after the dream that I realized that I took her for granted for so many times, for the things that she does for me. These little things that she does for me, I never knew that they'll mean so much in the end. In the end, when she passes on, and I look back at every thing, they'll mean just so much to me, everything to the smallest detail. Her cooking lunch, dinner for the family. Buying things for me. Shopping with me, talking to me, playing with me, and me being able to share my secrets with her. She did so many things for me, more than I can list here, and what I only can say is a thank you, and that’s so insufficient, after looking back at all the things she did for me.

Well, when I lost my grandfather, I didn't have many memories about him, because I had never spent much time with him, and that I can't remember much about him.
It’s been almost 3 years, yet I still feel sad when I think about him. I remember that he promised me something but sadly, he didn't live to fulfill it. He promised that one day, he'll bring me to Disneyland. True, its funny, but it means so much to me now. That day he passed away, all I could think of is that he made that promise to me, and that he liked to play with me when I was young, that’s all. And then I cried and cried, and I really wanted him to fulfill his promise. And I wish that he was still with me.
Dear God, can I have my Grandfather back? A moment spent with him will do. I didn't get to see him for the last time, now, I want to just talk to him ONE LAST TIME. Please.
I MISS HIM LOADS. ):
(And now, because of this, I hate it when people break their promises to me.)


I don't want to take anyone for granted, and I shall try very hard to do so.